How sexual addiction ruined my life

I do not like to call myself sexually dependent. When people hear these words, most of them have three choices. Some people think that such dependence does not exist and that this is only a made-up excuse for bad behavior.

Others think that sex addicts are crazy uncontrollable freaks who can't think about anything other than sex. And still others think it's funny, they say, what else can you complain about? Do you have sex all the time and think this is a problem?
I have always been different sexually and this has been a problem from an early age. Of course, I did not think of myself as an addict at first, which turned several years of my life into a catastrophe. My main problem was infidelity. I have always been in a 3-4 relationship at the same time. I had many partners, and I lied to them all.

It was not about sex, although I liked him, it was about control and power.

Being already married, I had sex with three colleagues, and two of them I confessed in love. To you it may seem terrible, or fascinating. I do not know.For me it was like a whole day walking excited. And usually I had sex every day with a couple of people.

That is why the problems started. I had many opportunities to stop all this, but I continued to pull to the point of no return.And this is exactly what characterizes addiction - I repeated it again and again, although it ruined my life.Just like a drug addict or an alcoholic. Sex gave me a dopamine rush. After that I could feel shame, depression and embarrassment, and the only thing that saved me from these feelings was sex.

I could not stop. It doesn’t matter what happened, it doesn’t matter that I destroyed more than one marriage, and even lost more than one job because of it. But I fell deeper and deeper into the pool with my head.

Do you know what helped me? I looked at other people, like me, sexually dependent, from the side. It was, so to speak, the interest groups that I found during my sexual experiments. Then I myself understood that I needed help, but decided to look at people like me. And you know what I saw?

A man who just left the detention center for exhibitionism. A rich uncle who slept with thousands of people: from anonymous gays in a public restroom to long-legged female models.And also a nurse from the children's clinic, who went to closed sex clubs, where she was engaged in group sex. Full hardcore.

And I felt ugly. I hated it all. I realized that I was doing what I didn’t want to do, which I was not ready to look into. And it made me change. I pulled myself together.

7 years have passed since then. I am happily married. Sex addiction is still my problem I struggle with. But I do not cheat on my husband, I just try to switch my energy and obsession to something more useful.


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